I bow down before anyone who has completed any academic study as a parent who has no nanny and housekeeper. I took a few days off thesis writing and am on this very cold morning struggling to get back into it.
I’ve dragged my bar heater into the room and it’s right next to me.
I have 5 days to write this next chapter. I am not going to push myself to do more than the one. I will still be on schedule if I submit this one on Monday and the next one the following one (as opposed to two this Monday and then a fortnight for the next one). As I restructured it slightly, I have an extra chapter to write.
I think I need a very strong coffee before I begin writing again. I’ve spent the first hour distracted by house chores, checking emails and sorting out everyone’s life – including my cats. It’s been a lot easier with husband back as I don’t have to do the school run for another week or so. In theory, I have 12 days of all day writing but in practice I won’t be able to sustain that. I need breaks, walks and fresh air.
Here is the plan for this chapter and today:
- Write an outline – although it is in its draft form, it’s a mess. I need to put it all together properly.
- Run it through Grammarly and then do a close edit. Grammarly picks up typos. I make many and it picks up some grammar points. What I don’t like about it is that it makes some sentences too clean and the algorithms are not necessarily programmed for academic writing at this level. Nonetheless, it saves me time. I remember being so envious that a fellow postgrad’s mother was literate and educated enough to discuss nor edit her work. Mine can’t speak English properly so Grammarly fulfils half of this role.
- DON’T FREAK OUT and remind self that those who reach their goal have grit like the tortoise in the tortoise and hare race. I’ve found all these great resources to help students and own kid to have their best chance of reaching their potential, I really need to help myself now. It is deeply unsatisfying not being a jack of all trades and mediocre at most things when you know it’s through lack of effort. Process is way more important than the end result. I just have to get back into it.
- Stop comparing myself to others – I did not read through early drafts. They were probably really messy too.
Coffee and then writing.
Apologies to all who read this for not being in contact, or only sporadically, over the next 6-8 weeks. If you text me I will respond, but I’m not as available until after this is done and dusted.